Saturday, February 25, 2012
A letter to you from Shawn Doyle (Arkady Balagan)
It's been a while now since I wandered with cold bare feet across the Huxley lobby to tease Barbara, dupe Hugo, fight with Pippa, question Alcina or flirt with Danni. A lot has happened in both my personal and professional life since then. I was very disappointed when the show was not renewed, very heartened and gratified when thousands of you expressed your love and appreciation for it and fought to save our baby. I've done some interesting work in challenging projects elsewhere and have continued to take risks as an actor (not always succeeding, mind you, but risking anyway!). I've tried to be a good dad to my awesome kid and nurture a new relationship with an amazing woman who happens to be halfway round the world at the moment. Through it all, Balagan has sat in the corner of my mind, uncharacteristically still and silent, waiting for, what?
Waiting for the words, the ideas, the mission, the pain and the joy. Waiting to come back to life. Every now and then I try the accent on in my mouth, just to make sure it still fits. It mostly does, thankfully. And when I feel some of those sounds moving from my throat, over my tongue, between my lips, I remember Ark's wickedness, his joy and fervor, his true child-like fascination with life and what makes people want to go on living in the face of such struggle, confusion or pain.
Then I remember what a gift I was given with that role. One that went beyond some financial gain or popularity or ego-feeding. I was given a voice to express so many of Shawn's questions about all kinds of shit. About life. And that is NOT a gift that comes around all the time for an actor. Or, let's face it, for a person. That's why we need stories, why human beings have needed stories since the beginning of time: to not feel alone, and to make some kind of sense of it all.
And, in the end, that's why I miss Arkady Balagan and all his friends.
We are now at ANOTHER crucial time in our campaign to get Endgame renewed. Hulu will likely make a decision soon, at least that what I think. The show has been doing respectably, but now is the time to push it over the top and prove to them that PEOPLE WANT THIS SHOW BACK. If it is something you want as well, now is the time to do whatever you have to in order to accomplish the mission. Get the petition rolling strongly again. Get more and more eyeballs to Hulu. Watch an episode or two and rekindle that energy. Focused energy makes a difference, believe it!
Thanks for reading my little soppy love letter. I continue to be so grateful for all of you!